11.11 am
After a fresh start, posting my scribblings as “public”, I am (already) calling it quits.
The old misgivings have begun to raise their ugly heads again: my stuff being nabbed (as has occurred in the past, mind you, that I *know* of, so go figure). forum trolls who break me down in the forum, yet feeding themselves on my words in these page and even using them against me, plus the uncomfortable feeling that “something” is expected of me and a couple of other considerations, the most important one being: I feel I am banning myself from my own diary. Since I made the posts private this blog grew around me, like a secret cabin where you can retreat if the world drives you crazy. I can ramble senselessly about my little life without worrying about style, about opinions of readers, about “appropriateness”, about forum trolls who break me down in the forum and do not hesitate to use my words against me, I can say anything about anyone, disclose the secrets people entrusted to me, disclose my own secrets, say nasty things about my anyone (but of course smile in their faces), in short: here I am free.
Let people in, and I am a captive.
Thus, all in all, back to: “visibility: private”.
Bye.