Friday, January 24, 2003

Monday was Devan's birthday. He turned 9 years old. We postponed a birthday party for him until the February 1st, and I've scheduled a skating party for him. I haven't been roller skating since I was really young, and he's never been skating before. I rented the rink for 3 hours, so hopefully we'll figure out what we're doing in that time.... or we'll have fun *trying* to figure out what we're doing.

The nurse that comes on Tuesdays for my grandmother brought her digital cam up last week and took some pictures of all of us. They turned out pretty good, especially my mom's. These are the first pictures that she has had taken in probably 15 years or more, and she ended up having more than all of us... lol. I uploaded pics to my briefcase tonight, so if anyone would like to see, I think my Y! ID is <~~~~~~ over there somewhere :p

I've decided to keep this layout for a while I think. I really haven't found anything else I like as much, and I like the fact that it's not showing the blogger ad.... I can't figure out why, and I know I couldn't be that lucky again, so this one is staying. Also, I'd really like to find out about the smileys that some people are using on their blogs. Are they something that have to be uploaded somewhere and linked to, or is there some kind of script or something.... Or can they not be used on sites hosted on Blog*Spot?
Rambled by on 1/24/2003 01:33:28 AM

Wednesday, January 08, 2003

My cousin has been over here since Sunday.... there hasn't been any more talk of her moving in here and us moving out, so I still don't know what's going on. I should have known that it would be like this though. She's met a guy about 2 hours from here that she's been spending time with, so of course that is going to be her first priority. He's wanting her to move in with him. so that might be what happens. Either way, I think I am still going to find an apartment for me and Devan and then just come up here during the day sometimes to help mom with my grandmother.

I have really gotten to the point where I can't stand some of the people online. I would set my messenger as friends being able to send messages to me, but I don't mind talking to new people.... I just hate all of the ones that are saying 'want a boyfriend?', 'how far are you from so and so?', ...'wanna drive 15 hours to meet me for sex?'...... THOSE people are such idiots! There has been this one older man on my messenger for a while that was kind of getting on my nerves lately. If I got up to go to get a drink, he would send 4 messages before I got back to the computer.... I would say 'Sorry, I went to get a drink'... I would get back 'Well, that's kind of rude.... you could have at least told me that you would brb....'
That got on my nerves, but I didn't *really* say anything about it, but yesterday it all came to a head... Below is our conversation.... Now this man is about 12 miles from me, and he's 53 years old.... oh, and I've changed a little part of his name :p

gonestupid1949 (9:45:29 AM): so when u going out with me ???
gonestupid1949 (9:45:55 AM): ?????
gonestupid1949 (9:48:26 AM): r u not going to meet me ???
deniece_va (9:48:52 AM): I thought you were interested in talking to my mom
gonestupid1949 (9:54:06 AM): when is she online ???
deniece_va (9:54:15 AM): different times
gonestupid1949 (9:54:31 AM): tell her to look me up then ???
gonestupid1949 (9:56:35 AM): i need a picture of her ok
deniece_va (9:56:44 AM): she doesn't have a picture
deniece_va (9:56:54 AM): why do you need a pic?
gonestupid1949 (10:00:21 AM): i am not going to meet someone that is ugly
deniece_va (10:00:30 AM): :o
gonestupid1949 (10:00:41 AM): well do u blame me ???
deniece_va (10:01:02 AM): you know..... we don't exactly know what you look like either... and you were expecting me to meet you
gonestupid1949 (10:01:21 AM): well i am not ugly ok
gonestupid1949 (10:01:31 AM): they say i am cute as a button
deniece_va (10:01:44 AM): yeah, well people have different tastes
gonestupid1949 (10:06:03 AM): does she have a picture u can send by e mail ???
deniece_va (10:06:08 AM): no
gonestupid1949 (10:07:20 AM): well for get it then
deniece_va (10:07:23 AM): k
deniece_va (10:07:34 AM): see ya
gonestupid1949 (10:08:51 AM): doubt it
deniece_va (10:08:55 AM): whatever
deniece_va (10:10:00 AM): after hearing about not meeting someone if they are ugly, I wouldn't meet you anyway..... that says alot about character and it's not someone that I would want to talk to anyway
gonestupid1949 (10:11:35 AM): well i am not into ugly people sorry
gonestupid1949 (10:11:45 AM): lol
deniece_va (10:11:45 AM): well I'm not into rude people
gonestupid1949 (10:11:56 AM): ur the one that is rude
gonestupid1949 (10:12:40 AM): all i ask for was a picture
gonestupid1949 (10:13:12 AM): well be like the child u r lol
deniece_va (10:13:52 AM): I'm not being a child..... I'm acting more grown up than you are
gonestupid1949 (10:13:57 AM): u maybe 28 but act like 8
gonestupid1949 (10:14:05 AM): or is that 2???
gonestupid1949 (10:14:46 AM): i will talk to your mom but she has to send a picture before we meet
deniece_va (10:14:57 AM): no thanks..... she wouldn't be interested
gonestupid1949 (10:15:00 AM): maybe she is an adult
deniece_va (10:15:18 AM): delete her off of your list
gonestupid1949 (10:15:24 AM): she can make up her on mind can't she ???
deniece_va (10:16:07 AM): nope, cause I won't even tell her about your stupid ass, and she talks to who I put on her list, you can bet that you will be deleted and ignored
gonestupid1949 (10:16:36 AM): just as i said a child

Then he told me that I had a personality problem...I logged in to mom's yahoo, and he had sent her a message and was asking for her to add him to her list.... I denied of course, he sent a message the next day asking why it was denied.... Gee..... I wonder? *rolls eyes* :p
Rambled by on 1/8/2003 09:24:30 AM

Tuesday, December 31, 2002

Things are being stressful right now.... I don't know what all I can go into right now, and I don't know what all is happening (or will happen in the next few days) What I can say is that we finally had a talk with the family regarding my grandmother. Mom isn't able to take care of her like she needs to be taken care of... mom can't really even take care of herself. And I need a job, and me staying here 24 hours a day trying to do everything for her that needs to be done isn't working anymore. So we are moving. I don't know where, and I don't know when, and I don't know how....but if the rest of the family has their way it's gonna be sooner than we think. I'll post more when I find out what's going on.
Rambled by on 12/31/2002 12:08:56 PM

Friday, December 13, 2002

Gawd! Things have been so hectic lately. I thought earlier this week that my tags on my car were gonna expire soon, so I went out and looked to see what the date on them was and realized that they were ALREADY expired. I wouldn't have been in such a panic if we had had insurance on the car... but No, we didn't. We had actually been driving for almost a year without insurance (shhh, don't tell anyone!) So mom started calling insurance companies comparing prices. Then she found out from the insurance companies that since she had let the insurance lapse on the car, and she didn't turn in the tags, that her driver's license had been suspended, and she would have to pay a $500 fine probably. It also didn't help any that Devan wouldn't get out of bed in the morning in time to catch the bus to school, so I would have to drive him there in a car with expired license plates, no county sticker (did I forget to mention that?), and no insurance. Anyway.... to make a long story short (and to keep people from running away!) I got everything straightened out. It took 2 days to do it, but mom's license have been reinstated (they even waived the $500 fine), I have insurance, a county sticker, and my tags have been renewed for 2 years. I'm completely broke now, but at least things are taken care of.

Now.... about the Ex 'friend'. I haven't spoken to her. I'm this type of person that can have someone piss me off one time, and I completely quit having anything to do with them. My cousin says that I hold grudges..... I wouldn't necessarily say that though. I just think that most people have a limit of what they will put up with before they just stop having anything to do with a situation..... My limit is just 1 time. If someone does something and screws me over one, I don't give them a chance to do it again. So, I haven't talked to her.... and I don't see me talking to her anymore in the future. Now about the guy..... I haven't talked to him for maybe a week. My cousin had talked to him a couple times, and he said that me and the other girl had one thing in common that he didn't like.... she asked what that was. He said that we both talked about our Ex's constantly, which is a complete load of bull. Sheri told him that she thought he was just making excuses because he went out with my friend. (I didn't mention that in the last post either huh? Ok, he decided to quit talking to both of us except on here, but she kept calling him.... They went out to a movie and to eat one night, he said it didn't go well. Evidently, after her telling him that all she wanted was fun.... she thought that they were in a relationship. So I guess they aren't talking either). Anyway, he told Sheri that he had wanted for me and him to be able to go out and do things together, and just be good friends, but all I seemed to talk about was my ex...... And he was interested in getting to know me, not anything about my past. Dinesha had a point though..... IF I had talked about my Ex, if he was a friend, he would have wanted to know about my past too. I don't know about what's going to happen with that situation now, but I'm pretty much fed up with it too.

One of these days I'm gonna get around to changing the template here, I've just been so lazy lately... That and I can't really find anything that I want to change it to. I also need to make a new blinkie, but I've lost my instructions for it, and I've forgotten how to do them. I need to update some things on here too..... I know I am so behind here lately.
Rambled by on 12/13/2002 05:20:00 PM

Sunday, December 08, 2002

I guess I should clarify everything about the 'friend'. I don't think that either one of the people in question read this, and even if they did I don't care. The 'friend' that I am talking about was a girl that worked as an aide coming to help us with my grandmother. We got along good, and Devan and her 2 sons became good friends, so even when she wasn't working here, she would bring her kids up to play with Devan. This went on for maybe a couple of months. While she was up here, sometimes we would get on the computer and go into some Yahoo rooms and talk to people. While in there one night, I started talking to this guy that lives about 25-30 minutes from me. It was no big deal, he was just looking for some friends to hang out with, and people to go out and do things with. So after about a month, I gave him my number and he started calling me. One night when we were all in a conference on yahoo, I got disconnected and couldn't get back on. So he gave her his home number and his cell phone number to give to me, but he also told her that we were all just friends and that either one of us could call him anytime we wanted to. Anyway... after a while, he started coming over to my house. He would come over sometimes after he got off work around 1am, and we would sit up until 4 and 5 am talking.... until it was time for him to go back to work. He was very nice, wasn't like the typical man that I seem to find online, never said anything out of the way, and when he would leave he would ask if he could have a hug and that was it. Me and the girl started talking, and she kept telling me that she thought he was only after sex, and that he thought he could get us both in bed if he wanted to. I told her that he was ALWAYS nothing but respectful at my house and I didn't think so. Yeah, we flirted back and forth, but that was all there was. He just wanted friends and wasn't looking for a relationship or anything. So I felt that she set out to prove it to me. So one night after he left and she was up here, she started talking to him. Told him that she was at her sisters, and she started talking a lot of garbage to him. He started saying things back to her, then she asked him who he wanted to be with. He said that he thought that they were only goofing off, so he said that he wanted both of us. She kept on and on saying that he couldn't have both, he had to choose between us. He repeatedly told her that he WASN'T going to choose, and that he didn't want to ruin any friendship that he had with either one of us. But she kept on and on, until I got pissed off and he thought we were playing games with him. So he ended up not talking to either of us. Through all of this, she was calling him and trying to convince him that I wanted a relationship, to try to push him away from me cause that wasn't what I he wanted. Then she was convincing him that she only wanted friends like he did, and she wasn't looking for a relationship. So now, I've lost 2 friendships because she started talking alot of shit. Which bothers me.... because I don't trust people anyway, and it takes me a while to get to know someone. I don't talk to many people.... just for the fact that I'm afraid to get close to them and then end up getting screwed over again.

And thanks Psy. I had forgotten all about 'Obsidian Butterfly'. Now that you mentioned it, I think that's the one I have instead of 'A Caress of Twilight'.
Rambled by on 12/8/2002 08:33:47 PM

Friday, December 06, 2002

I can't believe it's been a month since I've posted anything. I guess I just haven't been in the mood lately, been thinking alot. I've been having certain friend issues lately, which just makes me believe my quote on my Yahoo profile even more than ever.... "There are no such things as friends.... only aquaintances". I'm the type of person anyway that values friendships that I do have with people, and it takes me a while to get to know someone and trust them. It seems like the minute that I do trust someone, something happens and I find out the type of person that that really are and I get screwed over and hurt.... which is what has happened lately. And yes, Veronica...... you told me not to trust the person, and I should have listened to you....

I've finished reading another Laurell K. Hamilton book. I finished 'The Midnight Cafe' a couple days ago, and I am on the second story in 'Black Moon Inn'. I LOVE those books, they are definitely worth reading. I would recommend them to anyone that was interested in reading anything by her. I think I might start on 'A Caress of Twilight' or 'Narcissus in Chains' next.... just have to see if they belong together and which goes first.

Rambled by on 12/6/2002 01:18:32 PM

Wednesday, November 06, 2002

I don't know where to begin.... now that I wanna post something, my brain isn't functioning, but then what else is new? :p
I entered my Neopet Koikoi92 in the beauty contest with a few other LN people for Halloween. He won first place for his species, so I am 10,000 np richer and I have a trophy ... woohoo!! LOL, I'm excited, that was the first BC that I had ever entered. Now Devan is wanting to enter his Fire Krawk into a BC.

I'm sick again.... but then of course, living in this house keeps me sick. The house has oil heat, which I'm allergic to.... plus it's drafty and dusty. Those things don't mix good with asthma. We went through at least 5 tanks of oil last winter, so this year I'm not letting anyone turn any heat on until it gets really cold. We bought a kerosene heater, and have just been using that for a few days.... which I'm also allergic to. Me and mom have been walking around in shorts and tank tops burning up, but Mamaw sits in her chair with a big robe on and a blanket in front of the kerosene heater complaining that she is freezing. I literally have to go outside on the porch just to cool down.

I went and filled out an application for an apartment down in Duffield, about 8 miles away from here. Devan isn't too happy about moving anywhere, but he'll have to just realize that we can't stay here forever. He thinks that we can stay here in this house until something happens to Mamaw, but he doesn't realize that when that happens, we're gonna need some place quick. We were gonna wait on a trailer, but it hasn't been moved in yet and I just don't feel that I can wait any more. I need someplace that is mine in a sense, somewhere that I can at least breathe.

Yesterday, my phone was still messed up. Mom called the telephone company from a pay phone, and they said that they couldn't find anything wrong with it, so it must be in my phones. I unhooked all of the phones, waited 10 minutes and then plugged one at a time back up.... into 3 different telephone jacks. Still didn't work. I went back out and called the telephone company again. He told me a way to check to see if it was an inside problem is to go out and find the box on the side of the house, and plug a phone into the thing to test the jacks and see if I got a dial-tone. I did that, and got one...... so I had to figure out what was wrong on the inside. The next door neighbor came over to see if he could figure anything out..... and Boy, did he! He came back in a couple minutes later, and said he had found my problem. My telephone wires on the outside of the house had been completely cut. And from what I understand him to say, all 3 wires to all 3 jacks were cut, and he said that you could tell that they were either cut by a pair of scissors or by a knife. He spliced them back together, and Tada! I now have a phone again. But now I'm worried..... Mamaw's house is up on a big hill and there are trees and bushes and everything around it. There are 2 houses up on the hill with it, but they aren't really that close. There are at least 3 dogs outside at the neighbors house, and they bark all night long...... The dog that I kept outside, Ellie, has disappeared and I don't know what's happened to her. My inside dogs haven't really been barking at night that much, so I guess that's a good thing. But honestly, if someone was trying to break into this house, it really wouldn't be that hard to do... It's an old house. Mamaw got mad once and broke the window out of the back door and there is wood covering it.... the door knob won't turn on that door, she doesn't have a deadbolt on it, and all that she has to lock that door is a little hook latch. The basement door coming from outside won't stay closed good... all someone would have to do is come up through the basement and push pretty hard on the door, it only has a little latch hook too. It makes me think that everytime my mom's friend was spending the night, and kept saying she heard noises and people walking around outside and downstairs, that maybe she wasn't as crazy as I thought she was.....
Rambled by on 11/6/2002 07:48:25 AM